Where Love has Gone

Your dark eyes flash with knowledge, as the smile that lights your full lips melt my heart. You shake off your suit jacket and loosen your tie.
I'm a new bride, shy to be alone with you for the first time. The embarrassement is causing my make up to melt.

You smile again and take a step closer to me, as you reach out and kiss me. My mauve lipstick is smeared, there's some on your chin.

The zipper of my dress catches, and I giggle anxiously, while finding the sense to kick off my gold high heeled shoes, and help you with the zipper.
I am now in my slip in front of you, and I don't know what to do, so I look up at you with head hanging down. You find that look endearing and kiss me passionately again.
This gives me greater courage, and I tug at your tie; pulling the shirt out of your trousers.

You look upon me with such love, and promise me that from tonight we won't spend one single night apart. We make love, sweet love, that though both of us are inexperienced and shy, we correctly interpret each other's every move and nuance.

And in the morning we wake up entwined. We do ghusl and pray Fajr together. Its the first time I'm spreading my sallaya behind yours; and our togetherness is even better solidified as we perform sajda together.

I know that nothing can drive us apart. We're one. we're soul mates. We were like ships in a storm and found the perfect harbour in each other. My heart is singing for joy as we go down to breakfast together. I'm so joyful I can't manage more than a few sips of freshly brewed coffee. Life is too sweet and fulfilling to need anything other than your love. You're my nutrition. You're the very food of my soul. And we smile trustingly at each other above our coffee cup.


I still love you, Ali. I still believe in us.

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